on risk taking.
Jesus never promised us an easy journey, but he did promise never to leave us or forsake us. I’ve been mulling over this concept for months now. In times where I’ve felt sad and uncertain, I lean on this eternal truth that Jesus was forsaken on our behalf, which means we cannot be put on the chopping block. It’s not like we are standing facing two team captains and waiting to be picked for a team. We are the team. And Jesus is the team captain and he picked us! The highest team. The coolest team. The championship team.
I’m at a place in my life where I am facing some big decisions and approximately 100% of the time I’m worried and anxious about making the wrong choice or a choice that will end up failing. But I’ve been reminded lately by a wonderful mentor in my life that if I make one choice and it fails, then I make another choice after that and the next choice is not doomed to fail just because the first one did. She emphasized that I cannot know the future. And I offered a kind & soaked in sarcasm reply of, “Yes, I do too know the future, thank you very much.” (we don’t hold anything back from each other, obviously). But SHE’S RIGHT. I said in all seriousness, “Well yeah, but I can ANTICIPATE the future at least even if I can’t 100% know.” And she said “Really!? How?” And I paused. I was NOT expecting that. Have you ever thought about how much of your future that you actually cannot anticipate? We are really living one surprise moment to another. We have no idea what the future holds. No matter how much we try to plan, we can’t totally know.
This has been shaking the very future-casting foundation upon which most of my life is built.
Although I wish this feeling of life’s uncertainties away constantly, I think this is a spiritual sweet spot. Because I cannot rely on anything but God’s secure future for me. I keep walking, even when it feels like I have 1,000lb ankle weights on both feet and a 500lb weight vest on my chest, I keep dragging forward because forward is progress and forward is still moving. Even if just a centimeter. So move with me ladies. Cast a broad net over your future. You’re not stuck, no matter how stuck you feel.
Let’s say that out loud together because the words that come out of our mouths are an overflow of our heart: “I’m not stuck, no matter how stuck I feel.” Good job. I did it too. And I will keep saying those words out loud until I see breakthrough because they are true.
So let’s do this together. Send the email, write the letter, ask the hard questions, say your dreams out loud even if people say “I have no idea how you’re going to get there,” research your options, apply for the job you aren’t sure you qualify for, make friends, put on the bikini, go on the date, buy the plane ticket, and live a little. Jesus is not looking for perfect (He’s got that taken care of on His end), He’s looking for faithful. Take the risk. You never know what release is waiting for you on the other side.
“You hem me in behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such a knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it.” Psalm 139:5-6
Love you mean it,
Catherine